ego v soul

okay..ego a little far ahead yesterday..still having a hard time getting soul first even though have been pretty good about soul winning...hummm...going to keep being dilligent...keep fighting...lol...just like every day..even when my soul is on top it is still a fight to stay there..it's a lot like depression..hummm interesting..

life without carbs

This is the third morning i have woke up without a carb hangover! Yay!!! I think that i have been able to listen to my soul more then my ego. I have had a few close calls but i am really making a effort to listen to my soul rather then my human side.

soul v ego

I came up with the thought a while ago that life is a day to day battle of the soul v the ego. The soul wants to learn and grow and become closer to god and the ego wants to be what it is...an animal. Lately my ego has been winning. I've decided that that is going to end. As Tracy says..my soul has to get tough!

Yesterday was a pretty good day..i think that most of the time my soul won the argument! Let's hope today is just as good if not better. So far..i've been up for a little over two hours and so far so good!

Life

There is a giant hole in my heart and a giant hole in my life now. It is so hard to imagine my life without KayKay. I can't believe this. I'm so glad she was a part of my life. I'm glad that I knew her and I'm glad that she loved me and the kids.

I am sooo blessed!

I spent the whole day yesterday with Andrew! We went to the store together, worked in the yard together, and cooked together. I Loved It!

I live in the most beautiful place, on the water of course. There is so much life and so much peace in the water. I look at it and I see God and I see life. It makes me so happy every day.

what we do for our kids lol!

I will do just about anything for my kids...if I can do it, afford it, or somehow make it happen...i will try! I can't always do it but I do try. I'm not saying that I spoil my kids with tons of stuff...because I can't afford it, but for stuff they really really want I try. I love to spend time with them...I truly believe that the biggest thing kids want from you is your time. I try to spend as much time as I can with them...we love to play board games, hike, read, and just plain have dinner or breakfast together. One way I hope to spend time with Andrew is to try and win tickets to Playhouse Disney Live on Akronohiomoms.com

I'm going to try!!

Lent And What It Means To Me

I know that most people give something up for lent, even if they are not Catholic. I'm not Catholic and I have always given something up for lent because I get why they do it and I wanted to try and sacrifice just a little to be closer to Jesus, even though nothing we can do or give up would ever equal what he did for us.

Three years ago I decided that since I could never ever come close to Jesus' sacrifice and since the best thing I could possibly give up would be my time since I have so little of it, that I would give my time for lent.

The last two years I've tryed to do more community service during lent. This year I am trying to take it one step further, I'm also trying to be kinder, more loving, more giving, and trying to use time that I would usually think of myself to pray for and think of others. I'm really glad that I added this part to my life and my commitment during lent. I feel soooo good when I am praying for others and thinking of others. It is an amazing feeling.

If anyone reads this please pass it on...I think it would be wonderful if others could do this for Lent also.