headache

i have a hedache..carb hangover! also my back is killing me..probably a combination of carbs and not exercising lately..i'm going to try and exercise today..we'll see

one thing at a time

i've decided that a really big problem i have is that i have so many things/issues i need to deal with on a daily basis..but..i can only really do one thing at a time. the issue that i need to focus on the most is my depression. the medication really helps but i still have to monitor my thoughts constantly so it is still a lot of work to stay up..so the other issues like my eating, my relationship with god, and my growth as a person all have to split the little bit of time and energy that i have for me. let's face it..there is almost no time for me! that makes all this even harder..yesterday all i wanted to do was say forget it and go hide for the evening and just not think...but i took a deep breath and faced the evening and all my mom and wife duties hopefully writing all this down will help me stay focused and less stressed. i love god, me, and my family

ego v soul

okay..ego a little far ahead yesterday..still having a hard time getting soul first even though have been pretty good about soul winning...hummm...going to keep being dilligent...keep fighting...lol...just like every day..even when my soul is on top it is still a fight to stay there..it's a lot like depression..hummm interesting..

life without carbs

This is the third morning i have woke up without a carb hangover! Yay!!! I think that i have been able to listen to my soul more then my ego. I have had a few close calls but i am really making a effort to listen to my soul rather then my human side.

soul v ego

I came up with the thought a while ago that life is a day to day battle of the soul v the ego. The soul wants to learn and grow and become closer to god and the ego wants to be what it is...an animal. Lately my ego has been winning. I've decided that that is going to end. As Tracy says..my soul has to get tough!

Yesterday was a pretty good day..i think that most of the time my soul won the argument! Let's hope today is just as good if not better. So far..i've been up for a little over two hours and so far so good!